Right now, I want to actually start with making a graphic novel. So far I have the art skills to sketch and ink. I even have a few ideas down for stories. The only major obstacle for me to overcome is to actually have the discipline to write.... and type. There's also having the knowledge about the relationships between writers/comic artists and publishers. I've had this history of having a hard time typing a story; whenever I try, I end up frozen because I get stuck with the story structure.

I've also been reading this book (which should be on the list) that's helping me out. So far, I'm doing the basics until I know I can go to a higher level. As for the writing, I'm going to have to make up my own "assignments" with typing up research papers, random stories and pitches to get my ideas flowing. Ugh... it sounds like a lot! Oh well, I don't really have a choice if I want to train. -_-

I'm starting to notice a pattern in me lately. Whenever something goes awry, I tend to distract myself from it. I end up doing it to the point where I place myself in a hole, if you know what I mean. Recently I've been yelled at for a lot of things lately that in which I know it's my fault. And all because I just wanted the house to myself. I always want to be alone at home or I'm constantly out a lot for as long as I can just to be me, I guess. When it all comes down to it, there's a stress issue that I have to work out.

I'm usually at peace when I'm drawing, but I was recently on hiatus for a long time and it was frustrating to get a finished piece out. Don't get me wrong, school's been helping me a lot with my skills. It's just been kind of hectic for me to forget and lose my train of thought every now and then. Whenever it happens, I get into some sort of trouble that I don't like; afterwards, my brain's scrambled and things haven't been getting better since then. On top of that, I try to work on some of the things I need done and I end up getting distracted by other errands-the pile up little by little.. ugh!

To be honest, it's all been a stress issue and I want to fix it... Right now, if feels like the only way to start that process is to be away from it all, in other words: Moving out. This is actually my first journal entry and I'm feeling a little better after typing this. Maybe I should do it more often..